How you ever felt lost?
I feel like that right now. I mean, I’m supposed to be happy. I am supposed to be happy. Then why don’t I. I fell like my emotions have just exploded inside of me. I wish life were different. I wish you were different.
Have you ever felt like the one that you love doesn’t love you back. Sometimes it’s like they are waiting for something better, but then you think, “What can get any better than me?” I guess it’s a humans defense mechanism. They want to make sure they are not going to miss out on anything. They want to exhaust all the possibilities. Well not me.
I know the feeling I fell is God’s love. I don’t know if I believe in soulmates, because God is love and we are love and so how can we decipher our true love from just the ol’ plain lust of love. We were made with love and so how can we be sure the one we love or give our heart to is our true love?
I think it’s the holey spirit that helps us. You might come across someone that gives you butterflies when you first meet them, that feeling of nervousness, and that since of uncomfortness. I believe that is love wrapped up in more things, but as the days go by it just feels like any other day. Nothing really special, that’s a lust love. Lust love disguises it’s self for true love. When you first kiss, it’s almost like fireworks. ALMOST!!! When you hug and when they caress your body, there’s a stinging pain feeling that comes over your body. It hurts, but it fells so good, that you want more, but when the time is over and time just keeps going and that feeling comes and goes, that’s lust love.
Real love. true love. Oh, it has no end. It keeps going and going. It never runs away, it might hide, because we as humans deal in the flesh and not the spirit, but a true love. It’s amazing how you hear that people go 50 to 80 years and that love is still there. That feeling you get in the pit of your stomach, like you want to laugh, to cry, or shout out to the world. Something inside you that gives everything you have to make that person happy. You never give up, it’s never a thought. Every time you see them you heart skips a beat. You both walk in tune with each other. Both of your hearts are on the same beat and all of that never stops. That’s true love.
I feel this love with them. It hid itself when I said goodbye, but then when I saw them again those feelings were there. This person makes me not recognize myself as who i thought I was. I think my soul loves him and it won’t go away. I’m a writer and I can’t remember how much I have written since I’ve met them. It’s like I got the wind knocked out of me. Are we meant to be or is it just me. Is it lust disguising itself as love? Or is love trying to show itself and we are not listening.
I’m trying to show that I need you in my life Trying to show I want you in my life.My heart is so full of love that I want to give you. I feel my spirit needs you. I feel not whole without you. Every time I get near you, our hearts get in sync, but when I walk away it’s all out of tune.
Why are you fighting me? Why are you fighting us? I don’t think I’m that strong enough to watch you keep your distance from me. I pray to God that he makes me strong enough to stand by you, to support you, to love, and care for you. Holey spirit please give me strength while I am on this earth. It’s like I’m watching an angle leave my sight every night.
Until we meet. Until we are able to be together. Remember I will always love you, my heart will always love you. #FSPOETRY