Posted in Khaniqua, Poetry

Breath In

As the world keeps turning

My life keeps spinning

Beautiful black girl

She never stops dreaming

Dreaming of you and dreaming of them

She wraps herself in the distant future

Not afraid of the past

But ready for the oncoming future

She baths in beauty

But all she sees is hate

The light is dimming

So, she leans on faith

The ambiance of treasures

Fill her brain

She walks with doubt

And with so much pain

As the world turns

My life keeps spinning

But I keep livin’ I keep movin’

One eye in the mirror and the other at life

The future is waiting

And I’m deaths bride

He loves where I’ve been

Because I stay to long

Faith in an omniscient being

Has me seeing

Seeing double the time and double the work

I ask for it all, but I breath in the dark

I walk with light as you look at me

My mind races to places that you just don’t see

So, as the world keeps turning

And my life keeps spinning

I inhale the future

And let out the past

I walk statuesque

With a brain full of life

Breathing til’ the end of time

Breathing until I see you

It keeps turning

And I keep spinning

I dream all my dreams

And I end up winning

Faith is hard with something

But I know my future is bright

And I’ll breath it in and wait to see


Posted in Haley, Poetry

Broken Tears

Broken Tears

Tears streaming
Head spinning
Outraged, but sain
Heart-broken and in pain
The news broke
And I got gut punched
The news broke
And I went numb
Not worthy
Always beggin
Not worthy
Only for sexin
Looked for love
And it ran away
Looked for love
And it was scared to stay
Not even the connection could save me
I know more than you’ll ever know
I’ll show more then they can
Broken dreams, hope, and rings
The floods in my eyes
Trying to wash away memories
If I could forget I would
But the devil is holding tight
Holding on to the pain
To where I can’t sleep at night
I have nothing left
This is not my test
He clings to me with that glimmer of hope
I cling to him with hope and faith
He showed me the way
And he showed me You
But it’s all gone
A friend and bond
That I thought could never be broken
But satan proved me wrong
With just a price and words un-spoken
Now I sit here in a river of tears
Facing my fears
With the words that were un-spoken
I sit here now


Posted in FSPoetry, Poetry

Find your way back

Without you I feel empty
I walk around with a facade like everything is OK
But there’s only part of me here
I gave you my heart
And never got it back
A love lost
Waiting for the return
How can you love someone
That you have not spent time with?
Never laughed with
Joked with
Not even made love to
I kissed you one time
And that’s all I needed
You stole my heart
With the key intact
I spent nights wondering when you would return
To come back and love me
To just come back to me
My heart aches when you’re not around
My beds empty
I want to lay with you
My arms are empty
I wanna hold you
My hands are empty
I wanna stroke you
My love is waiting
It wants to cherish you
It doesn’t care what you did
Love doesn’t care what you do
Just, as long, as you come back
The pieces will align back together
My love doesn’t hold grudges
My love is yours for the taking
It’s waiting for you
Come back to it
Come back to us
I love you we need you
This pain seems unbearable
And the tears roll like thunder
Why do I feel this way?
Why does it hurt so bad?
I try not to think about it
I try to shut it in
But when I see everyone’s love
Explode for each other
It reminds me that you’re not here
It reminds me that there is a missing link
I want so bad for you to come and find me
To fix me
To heal me
You’re the only one that can make it better
Can’t you see
I’m in love with you
My love loves you
My soul loves you
And if you’re not with me
I’ll never be whole
I want to be whole
Come back to me
Please come back to us



Posted in FSPoetry, Poetry

After the Storm

Unrecognizable structure
Beams lost
Nails bent
Everything ruined
Like Pooh Bear looking for honey
Pipes bent
Everything way beyond repair
Everything in despair
Toys ripped to shreds
Pictures unrecognizable
Valuables non-replaceable
Hearts broken
Words unspoken
The look of hopelessness
Runs across my face
A ruined life
Ruined dreams
Everything lost or so it seems
Weakness without strength
Is lost in sadness
But Faith in Him
Will not bring weakness
A beautiful pile
Of the ultimate junk
The air we breathe is full of
Dirt, ashes, and wood
And no lives took
You can rebuild
And buy more things
The lives that weren’t taken
Don’t need to be replaced
They couldn’t if they were
Smiles creep across a brand-new day
And hope rears its head
To say everything is ok
Laughter fills the broken structure
It takes months to replace
All that is broken
But Faith holds tight
Of a life that was transformed
We can see clearly now
After the storm


Posted in FSPoetry, Poetry

A love from the past

A Love from the Past

I cried those last tears
Worry and doubt left with the fears
No love lost
No love gained
My heart is not full of pain
He laughs when I see him
He still looks good
Did he miss me?
I missed him
I let go because I held on to tight
High standards I have
And I won’t make them light
I got played
More than a year of waiting
But all you were doing was procrastinating
Forever was never an option
You played with me like a rag doll
And just threw me back in the toy box
I was looking for a strong hold
But all I found was a fox
It’s been months since we talked
But I saw you ever week
The love I have for you
Is a love that I cannot speak
Deleted and blocked
I checked ever, so often
When Our eyes would meet
Then the love would creep
Never over
Just in a bad place
I could always go back
And see what I missed
And I responded with love
And our love did last
Oh, how I love
My love
A love from the past


Posted in Khaniqua, Poetry

A glowing heart’s faith

Rigged places
Strange faces
Different avenues
No real venues
The sky stays blue
I wish it would rain
The dark clouds will bring out my pain
Never warm
Always cold
Sitting and waiting
For life to unfold
At a standstill
Everything seems broken
Every time I speak
My words are not spoken
Vanished like the air in the nights’ warm sky
Unlike birds who sing when they cry
Life’s a make of emptiness and sadness
Hurt and pity mixed with turmoil and hope
I can’t sing praises
If I can’t see it
I can’t be grateful
If I don’t feel it
I can’t feel hopeful
If I have no hope
I can’t feel faithful
If I have no faith
An unknowing belief
And trust is… faith
My world can be ripped to shreds
Crashing down like lightening to a tree
But I will not falter
I will not wither
There are things I don’t understand
And things that I question
But faith keeps me locked in
Strapped in for the ride
I won’t subside
I won’t give in
Life’s not a picnic
But with faith I win
I love this world and it can tear you apart
But faith is my strength
And is stays glowing in my heart